Eleventh Session

Eleventh Session: Monday 2nd December 2013

So for this session I was able to continue writing up my new monologue, but I still had to think of Sally as a victim, but I was really struggling for this (just like last time). I finally came up with the idea for Sally being a victim of Self Harm.

This actually worked really well, as Sally has stitches all over her body (because she's a rag-doll), so I could make it look like she did it to herself as she was lonely and depressed because of Doctor Finkelstein  and the fact she didn't know that Jack Skellington didn't love her back.


There was a moment I felt real,
No pain, no hurt, no suffering.

Do you know how it feels?
How bad the need to escape is?
How far I'd go?
Do you know how it feels on your skin?

The cold metallic surface upon your skin,
The blood seeping from my veins,
To feel the release,
To feel the pleasure.

I see the way they look at me,
The way they pity me,
Forcing me to be involved, so they can feel better about themselves.
They think I'm weak.
They think I'm weak.
Too weak to protect myself.
When all along I am by myself.

I'll show them,
Locked away up here,
I'll prove to them.
Alone, Knife against me.
I won't, I know I won't.

Or, I could rip my dress,
Tie it in a slip not,
put it around my neck,
End it,
Here and now,
Give the world a fond farewell.

The doctor wouldn't notice,
For weeks even,
Replace me,
Run away for months on end,
Jack wouldn't notice.

If I told him,
About how I feel, 
Would he help me?
Could he help me?
Should he help me?
Will help me?

I feel more comfortable performing this one, but the content behind it still slightly worries me, as, although now it is more common to see young adults self harming, it's never really discussed, not even in school.